CD16

CD16- "Merry Christmas to All to All a Good Night"

CD16 has approached and I guess the doctor was right. I should of started on CD17 with the OPK. Just still getting that faint line. It's Christmas morning and I can't sleep. It's 2:30am. I have to get up for work in a couple of hrs. I'm nuts being up this early.

Of course, when I woke up and pee'd on the stick - I had a wave of sadness come over me all of a sudden. A sadness because we have no babies with us this year. Not our Dakota and not our baby we found out I was carrying on November 2nd. Our baby Dakota would have been a year old by now. He (or she) would have been old enough to open presents. The thought of that just makes my heart feel so empty sometimes.

I'm trying to stay focused on the future, 2010 and not to dwell on the past. I'm anxious to see what God has in plan for our lives.