CD 7

Well, since I am NOW on CD 7, I guess that means I didn't get my BFP this past week. Booooo!!! Like clockwork, AF came to visit on 06/23... exactly 1 month after last. It's depressing to know that my periods can work exactly like they are suppose to but it's just not working for us!!!

My OB doctor just boosted my Clomid to 150mg. I was a little nervous. No problems til last night. I was having such major hot flashes, I couldn't take it. I was trying to sleep and I couldn't. I got completely undressed, no blankets, air on, and fan blowing on me!! Still - I was hot!! Yowzers, well - good thing my last day of taking that medication is later on today. Then I have to look forward to those eggs developing in my ovary. That can be a bit painful at time. I had a lot of pain one day last month and that was 50 less mgs.

I don't know how much longer I can take the disappointment.

CD 25

Yesterday I had to have blood work to check to see how my progesterone levels were. So, I'm anticipating the results of that.

I've started a new book, "Tuesdays with Morrie" about a middle aged man, who's busy with all of the world today, takes time out of his busy schedule to spend with his former sociology professor from college. It teaches you not to take anything for granted. Anyone who suffers from infertility or a loss doesn't seem to take anything for granted. I can only speak for myself. I know how important life is. I've only just begun this book but it seems like it's a good one....

CD 22

Dakota's Angelversary....

Two years ago at this time I was in labor. I delivered Dakota at 13.2 weeks. It was June 13, 2008 (Friday the 13th at that) when I went into my doctor's appt and found out Dakota's heartbeat had stopped.

So, here I am STILL on my infertility journey. It's been a long while since I blogged. Since my last blog I've went through 2 Reproductive Endocrinologist and now I am back at square 1 with my regular OB, Dr Gibson. I didn't believe the latest RE that IVF was my ONLY option. I've gotten pregnant 2 x's without their help and it's hard for me to believe that.... Will see. I'm praying to God that him & I will prove them wrong!!!

So CD 3-7 I took 100mg of Clomid each day. CD 15 (last Sunday) it felt like my rt ovary (the only one I have) was about to explode. He also prescribed me Progesterone - I think to ease my worry. Tuesday, CD 24, I will get labs drawn to check my Progesterone levels. Crossing my feelings all will be good.

So, today has been a little emotional for me - Dakota's on my mind.

PS - for my 35th birthday in May I got a tattoo in remembrance of Dakota. I love it and it was totally worth all of the pain.

CD26

I'm already being a slacker with this blog. It's all a waiting game now. Next Monday (a week from today) I go & get a blood pregnancy test. I'm trying NOT to get my hopes up, but I just can't help it. I started the progesterone suppositories on Friday. Wierd! It was strange putting a pill up my "you know what". The first pill I thought, "well, this ain't so bad". As time progressed I started to realize why women on progesterone get the nickname "soggy crotch". LOL. I have some wierd stuff going on with my body but I'm trying to tell myself it could all be signs & symptoms of the progesterone as well. Itchy breasts. Aches & pains in my groin area. But, it could be signs of the progesterone. I'm hoping and praying....