CD 13

Wow, it’s been a long time since I blogged!! I kind of was in a rut for awhile. I put off the whole “trying to conceive” for many months because I wanted a break from it. It’s stressful on my body. Stressful on my mind.

Scott & I have been going to counseling since January, not because of marital problems. I mean, well, everyone could use it for their marriage but it’s not like that’s why we started going there. We started going for my grief issues and to help with infertility, etc. One thing we weren’t seeing eye to eye on and it was painful for me was if we were going to continue on this trying to conceive journey. I want to. Scott doesn’t. He worries about my health and what would a baby do to me. So, one thing that our counselor recommended was to go to the “specialists” and ask them these questions that he had. I called and made an appt, which happened to fall on my birthday. Go me!! I thought, “Well.. this could make a good birthday or not so good birthday.”

It turned to out to be an awesome birthday!!! We seen Dr Gross at the OSF Maternal Fetal. We are so lucky to have such awesome doctors in our Peoria area. Oh my gosh!! It’s amazing, seriously!! Hopefully, no one would have to seen them because their high risk doctors, but if you have to – wow!! I can’t say enough good things about them. Have you ever walked out of a doctor’s visit and said, “I need to send them a card!” I did. Thanking them for being so informative.

Dr Gross walks in (after my loooooong talk with the diabetes nurse) and the first thing he says to the both of us, “Let me just begin by telling you that I have no doubt in my mind that you can carry a successful pregnancy from beginning to end.” As soon as he says this, I start crying. You know? That’s all I need to hear him say to Scott. Scott’s so freaked out. We discussed all my medical issues and what that means. Lupus, Myasthenia Gravis, Diabetes, Antiphospholipid Syndrome, and High BP. Yeah, I know?? A lot!! Autoimmune issues seem to come together. Which mine do. High BP and Antiphospholipid Syndrome can both cause pre eclampsia, so we talked about that. He told us that out of all my medical issues – he’s more worried about the high bp than anything. Lupus – you have to worry about heart blockages in babies. More often than not, women with Lupus do have healthy, happy babies!! Now, I just have to get my diabetes in check!! I know exactly what I have to do. I know I need to be better!! I just seem to get lazy.

That’s what’s going on with me… next week we have an appt with Dr Horowitz @ the Sher Institute. Keep us in your prayers.

xoxo, Sam